OK, so that statement might be a bit extreme, but it isn’t a big stretch. Since I started really focusing on blogging (the past couple of weeks notwithstanding), I have been putting on weight. Consistently my pants have been getting tighter and tighter. My younger sister said “Well of course! You make your own bacon for God’s sakes!” True. I have always thought moderation would be my salvation, but I guess I need to stop making pastries and start exercising.

In the past, I have always been the person who ate what I wanted. This was because I also used to work out. In my heyday, I would run on average 5 miles a day, every day of the week. An easy day was 3 miles. A push may have been 8-12 miles. I enjoyed it. Then about 3 years ago, I changed jobs. In conjunction with this job change, I broke my toe. It all seems like minor stuff, but it somehow created the perfect storm for becoming a couch potato. It happened so subtly that I didn’t even notice it happening until I was woefully out of shape. When I sit down now, I have the proverbial “muffin top” coming up over my pants. Not pretty. Not pretty at all.

Anyway, whenever I get online these days, I am either looking at other food related sites or gardening stuff. When I hit the food stuff, it is mostly about sweets. We are suckers for cupcakes – it’s true. Even after my newly proclaimed desire to lose weight, I found myself making donuts. Seriously. Who does that?? I used the excuse of my husband’s office breakfast potluck as a reason to make them. We each had one (OK, so I had 2 plus a donut hole, but who is counting?) and the rest went to the office as planned.

So I have decided that it is no longer my job to eat the leftovers. I felt compelled to “clean out the fridge” for my lunch each day, since I was the one cooking and also the one at home for all 3 meals. I didn’t literally eat everything in there, but I would go through and see if I could put together a meal that would empty out 2-3 of the containers that I had from earlier in the week. This didn’t seem like a bad thing at the time. But recently it reminded me of a time when I was about 20 or so. I had come home from college one night and wanted to eat some of this left over mac ‘n’ cheese we had. There was really more than I wanted, but what I was putting back didn’t seem like enough for another meal, so I just took it all. I found myself an hour later, literally leaning back from the table taking a huge breath, as if getting ready to attempt to tackle it again. It was stupid. Why not just stop eating? Realizing that was a good thing. Too bad I had to do it again 20 years later. I guess even life lessons can be forgotten with old age – LOL!

Anyway, I was sitting here last weekend putting together my menu and grocery list and thinking that I should come up with something brilliant for Memorial Day, since everyone and their dog will be having a BBQ. Then I thought, screw it: Just cook something that you want and forget about the blog-ability of it all. And if I focus on some of my other interests now and again, maybe I won’t be so pudgy. My husband has argued that I am “losing my base”; while I argue that I never had one, unless you count my mom and sisters. Besides, the blog is supposed to be about what makes me who I am. I am not just a home cook. I am a mad gardener and frequent lunatic mom. These are pieces of the whole. Take me or leave me. And hopefully there will be less of me soon.



  1. I know how you feel, since I’ve been using baking and blogging for my creative outlet and making all those things in my notebooks, I think my whole family has gained weight. They’ve now banned cheesecakes for the summer, so I have had to find friends to pass them around.

    • I think we are going to have to ban deep frying, as that seems to be coming up a lot lately in recipes I have been testing. Fortunately, I can always find someone to pawn thing off on, but it doesn’t mean I didn’t “test” it myself first – LOL! The woes of blogging. Glad to hear I am not alone. Thanks for the comment!

  2. The title made me laugh. Not the intense cooking you have been doing for many months would allow you to gain weight, but the blogging about it that caused your figure changes.
    Not the fact that finding the time as a mother of 3 with busy schedules, to jog the 5 miles a day.
    You also have a metabolic change for whatever reason. For most of your life you could eat lots and lots and never gain weight. In fact there were times you had to work at keeping your weight up.
    So guess the real thing is that you have reached an age where you will have to start being more concious of what you eat and of getting your excercise. Happens to all of us. LOL
    You are still a very lovely woman. just start taking care of yourself, as much as you do your family.

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