Wabi-sabi represents a comprehensive Japanese world view or aesthetic centered on the acceptance of transience. The aesthetic is sometimes described as one of beauty that is “imperfect, impermanent and incomplete.”
This is definitely the best way to describe my life. It is in a constant state of flux leaving me feeling that whatever it is I am doing, it is “imperfect, impermanent and incomplete.” Today, for example, is very wabi-sabi. One of the kids wet the bed, which is what he does when he is on the verge of coming down with something. Another child has some sort of rash that woke him in the middle of the night, which he, of course, then woke us. I was up with him from 3am until sometime after 5am. Then I slept 30 minutes past my alarm, making me have to rush around like a fool in order to get a shower before getting everyone ready for school. We were late for school anyway. Then, because I now had to take “the rash” to the doctor, I had to cancel everything else that I had going on today. I feel like I am spinning in circles; going nowhere fast. Why is life like that?
I suppose it isn’t just today. I feel like I have been in a funk. Off my game. This whole week has been weird for me, but I just can’t put my finger on it. I noticed that this week we have had take-out twice already. This is highly unusual for us. Since losing my job last year, I spend most of my time cooking. I just don’t enjoy eating out anymore. I hate to open the fridge and see take-out containers. Makes me feel like a failure of some sort. I suppose in the back of my mind I am always trying to prove that this was a good move. That I am the “super mom/wife” that I grew up watchin on TV. Keep in mind, I never knew anybody like that in real life, but that’s not the point. I think maybe there is also a part of me that wants to show my spouse that I can do this better than he did when he stayed home with the kids, even though I don’t think that I am doing a better job. I am just doing things differently. Interesting how life points that out for you.
The long and short of this rant is that I made dinner last night for the first time this week. Not only does this mess up my menu planning, but I really have to scramble to use up my super-fresh meats and veggies. I may have to put some things up in the freezer. Ironic, because I just spent the past several weeks trying to use at least one thing a week from the freezer. OK universe; you win! I get it…
Last night I had to use this halibut I bought. It cost me a pretty penny, but it is in season and I like to buy it when the getting is good. I bought twice what I needed though. I had a center-cut filet that I cut down the middle and then cut each of those into 5 filets. I put half in the freezer (I think I may make fish tacos sometime soon) and the other half was for dinner. I made butter-poached halibut with pink peppercorns and tarragon, citrus salad, parmasan-fennel shortbread crackersand fresh snap peas. As always, this got mixed reviews. My oldest had 2 helpings and my youngest wouldn’t even pretend to try it for the sake of dessert.
I should mention that when I saw this savory cracker, the first thought I had was a cheese pate-wine pairing thing. I may do this again when we are just doing cocktails.
I also need to give credit to my spouse for cooking this weekend for our Brazilian friends. He roasted this beautiful pork loin with red onions and served it with balsamic roasted potatoes. It was delish! If I hadn’t been so hungry, I would have gotten more photos!