Identity Crisis

This has been a weird week. I am guessing there is a full moon or something, but things around me have been strange. Or maybe it is just me. Anyway, my gray hair is really a topic of conversation this week. I have had people I don’t know commenting on how gray it is. I have had random children referring to me as “grandma”. I had one kid tell me that my hair scared her – really?? Trust me, this isn’t flattering when you are only 40 years old and doing drop-off for your 4-year old at pre-K. When I first went natural last year, I had all sorts of random people telling me how fantastic my hair was. For the first time in my life I felt cool. What happened in those 12 months to take me from hip to old?? So on top of this, I have already been feeling down about my looks. Doesn’t help that I haven’t been able to figure out how to get a workout in regularly (try not at all!) so I am feeling dowdy. Then I find myself pulling out my wintery clothes only to realize that most of them are super old and certainly not stylish. Maybe this is adding to my “old lady” persona. Either way, I am not liking it. I have spent an inordinate amount of time this week visualizing what I would look like if I was super stylish. Unfortunately, doesn’t help that I see myself with gorgeous auburn hair, great jeans, cool shoes and flattering shades. None of this is even close to what I actually have/look like, but one can dream…

On the food front, I continue to try new things. This week I made a Zabaglione sauce, which I served over fresh figs , pears and kiwi berries. It really tasted a lot like alcohol, so after letting the kids each taste a fingerful, they declined to have any more. My husband loved it though and it was super easy to make. Here is the recipe and a photo of the final product.

4 large egg yolks
¼ cup sugar
½ cup sweet Marsala

Using a double boiler, bring the water to a low simmer. Place the eggs in a non-reactive bowl that rests comfortably above the water level. Whisk with a balloon whisk until the eggs turn a light yellow. Whisk in the sugar, then the Marsala. Constantly whisk the mixture until it is foamy, then eventually soft and creamy. This should take around 10-15 minutes. It should be the texture of lightly whipped cream and should heavily coat the back of a spoon. Spoon the warm mixture onto the top of fresh fruit. All the recipes I looked at seemed to serve this with strawberries, but I went with figs, which are currently in season.

I also made a super easy molten chocolate cake. It was fast and yummy! I can see this being a problem. As if having a fast brownie recipe wasn’t enough – SHEESH! I was cooking so fast and furious that day, and I didn’t get any photos. I will make it again soon (I am certain!) and will include some photos and the recipe then.

Tonight is a new French Onion soup recipe. My husband has a version that rocks, so this one will have to be very good to supersede the one we already use. This weekend I am going to tempt fate and make another pie crust, but this time for a pot pie. I am also making steaks and baked potatoes. I am trying out a dry aged thing in the fridge, to see if that makes any differencein the flavor or texture of the meat. Stay tuned and I will let you know how it all turns out.



3 thoughts on “Identity Crisis

  1. I am going to stay the course. I hated taking the time and money to color my hair. Let’s just hope that my fans return. Just this morning someone told my my hair was “so cool!” I am hoping it was a nasty slump – LOL!

  2. I”m feeling frumpy myself – could be fall too. I’m hoping it passes! Stick with trying new things – I think so much growth in the food arena tends to shake us in other areas as well.

    xo, Sustainable Eats

  3. I think that’s when I decided I couldn’t do the gray hair thing. People kept mentioning the oldness of me. I looked like a “cool granny” or a crazy old hippy lady. Jesus who wants that? it was 95, I was 40. I started dying it a kind of chestnut, then mahogany. The blond hair works better for me and my gray blends, with the grays being different shades and degrees, it looks intentional. Maybe it’s time you turned back the clock:-).

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