Work has been really hard. This week has been brutal. I work in a very aggressive environment and it can take its toll. I have been questioning myself since I started this job nearly 2 years ago. Lately, I spend a lot of time fantasizing about winning the Food Network Star title. I know this is just an escape and coping mechanism, but I honestly think that I need to do something else with my life. While I like the work itself, this place will be the death of me. I have such bad muscle tension in my back that I have radiating pain down my arm, my stomach is literally full of lumps and my eye is twitching… again. I just wonder what my calling really is. I can’t be here to save the world one person at a time, but what am I hear to do?