Rehab and Chocolate

About 2 years ago I left my job as a high-tech recruiter. I had been working in this job since I left college. I fell into this job really. I had never intended to end up in any sort of office job. The long and short of it, I decided not to go to med school and somehow found myself in a job as a recruiter. Turns out I was pretty good at it and I rose through the ranks fairly quickly. But when I left my job without having another one lined up, it was a relief. I was finally finished with something that I never meant to start. I was so burned out on the job and I no longer had any inkling of love for what I was doing. I am not sure I ever had any real love for it, but I am a competitive person by nature, so it was easy to get caught up in it without realizing it.

Once I had left the industry, I would jokingly tell people that I was a “recovering recruiter.” It was a very tongue-in-cheek thing to say, especially when there are real people suffering from real addictions. Using my rehab line was less than PC, but I liked it. And then… I had to return to work. I had to “suck it up”, so to speak.

While I still don’t feel any love for having an office job, I understand that it is necessary. I realized that I couldn’t call myself a recovering recruiter and it bummed me out. Then I decided to look it up. Sadly, it turns out that my definition was too spot on. Perhaps next time I want to give something up, I should look it up first. Before I name it.

   [ree-huh-bil-i-teyt, ree-uh-], re·ha·bil·i·tat·ed, re·ha·bil·i·tat·ing.

verb (used with object)

  • 1. to restore to a condition of good health, ability to work, or the like. (YIKES – this hits too close to home)
  • 2. to restore to good condition, operation, or management, as a bankrupt business.
  • 3. to reestablish the good reputation of (a person, one’s character or name, etc.).
  • 4. to restore formally to former capacity, standing, rank, rights, or privileges.

While I was preparing to return to work, I found myself overcome with stress and anxiety. I hadn’t had to go to work, much less commute and do the office thing, for over 2 years (not counting the work I did because I wanted to). I had been fortunate enough to finally be in a position to be with my kids – and one of them 24X7. I had also sprouted a blog and a rather healthy (again, the definition might kill me here!) cooking practice. I suddenly saw many of the elements of my life that I loved falling out of place.

So what would any foodie girl do? I made something with chocolate, of course! My other fall-back food is Chinese, but I didn’t have the stuff I needed on hand and chocolate was far more appealing. Anyway, about 10 years ago there was a woman who would sell these high-end French pastries at the Farmer’s Market. I would happily trudge down to the market on Sunday morning and buy myself a yeasty-chocolatey bread. It was literally dream-worthy. I honestly have never forgotten how good it was (did I mention this was 10 years ago?!). Anyway, I decided it was high time that I attempted to recreate that bread. I am not ready to share the recipe with you yet (my husband said it should become a family secret!), but I thought that the photos might entice you. It really was delightful. Throw in a cup of hot tea and my world was suddenly OK again.

Sticky Buns – Preroll

11 thoughts on “Rehab and Chocolate

    • Agreed. It has taken me too long to figure this out. I no longer define myself by my day job. I just wish I could figure out how to squeeze in some exercise so that I could tell people that “I have it all!” LOL!

  1. Oh…it’s not fair to tempt us with such great photos of something that must be so delicious and not share the recipe. A tear is rolling down the corner of the eye.

  2. It’s funny, when we bloggers expose some of our true selves, we create really engaging posts. This is a fine example. It is not easy to do because we are giving something of ourselves away. Hopefully you will get it back in other ways.
    Now, give us the recipe!

    • Ancient family secret :) Just kidding! I want to give it a few more whirls before I release to the world at large. Thanks for the comment. The past few weeks have been rough. Going back to work is hard!

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